Life is a struggle. It’s hard to live in a world where you can’t decipher good or evil. Love or lust. Friend or foe. Real or fake. Trying to survive in a world of so much unknown. And all you are is atoms living among other atoms. A creature living among the beasts that try to prey on you. A living being trying to find a place in the world but in reality it’s hard when you’re just a speck in the universe. Spending years trying to find your guiding stars and fighting your demons along the way. Life will always be a work in progress.
So another birthday has passed and as I watch myself grow, I have realized how much has changed. As I aged a year younger, I look at mself now and how I react to life now compared to my previous years. I went through hardships,heart breaks, times of weakness and times of pure joy. But as I aged I realize that I use to overreact. Cry uncontrollably for hours after getting hurt. Have breakdowns if life gets too much to endure. Ignoring the ones I loved if I didn’t like what they hear instead of taking the constructive criticism. I never realized when I was younger that reacting the way I did only made my life even harder to bare. I’ve learned to get rid of the toxins in my life and within myself. To find solutions instead of give up. To let go of the ones who hurt and walk away with my head held high. To listen to what others may suggest because I could be doing things wrong. To learn to deal with situations with a calmer manner than to stress out. I learned to live my life with more confidence. More opened minded. I don’t need all the money in the world, I don’t need fame,I don’t need pocessions, because my own self worth is enough. My own life is enough. Life is short they say. I understand that now.